Everyday

Falling

Ever missed a stair? Hurrying with ease down a flight of stairs and suddenly your foot meets thin air instead of solid ground. In that split second you’re not sure whether you’ll catch your balance and play it off cooly, stumble until you face plant into the nearest wall, or just fall flat on your face at the bottom of the stairs. Will you be able to save the bag of groceries you’re carrying? Will anyone see you make a fool of yourself? Will it hurt?

So many unknowns. And it’s scary.

I felt like this after my daughter was born last year.

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My life was cruising right along. I got married, got a house, got a good job, and then I got pregnant. Then, my daughter’s arrival *step* lead me to the decision to quit my full-time job *step* so that I could spend more time with her *step*. But what now? *missed step–falling* Continue reading “Falling”

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Everyday

Hebrews 4:16

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“Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.” Hebrews 4:16

Our worship leader read this verse at church last week. It really got me thinking; How confident am I in his mercy and grace in my times of need?

Often, I pray for his mercy; but I continue to live with shame and guilt. Many times, I’ve asked for his grace; but I’ve remained chained in worry and fear.

This verse opened my eyes to see that I need to go to him confidently. I can’t pray for his mercy and not expect it to be so graciously provided. I can’t ask for his grace and forgiveness and not feel the weight lifted when it’s freely given. I should be boldly and confidently living in the light of these mercies. I can’t give these encouraging words to someone else in their time of need if I’m not confident in them myself. If I’m gonna talk the talk, I need to walk the walk.

My God doesn’t fail me. He doesn’t leave me hanging in my times of need. He covers me with his mercy and grace. Of this, I need to be confident.

 

 

Everyday

GO(ing)

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“Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations” -Matthew 28:19

The Great Commission. It’s the greatest command, yet one that most of us find so hard to follow. “Go and make.”

All my life when I’ve heard or read this passage of scripture, my mind has gone to people who I believe are really going and making: missionaries, evangelists,  preachers who uproot their lives to move across the country to share the word. I never applied it to little ‘ol backwoods-midwest-can’t-afford-a-plane-ticket me.

Recently, I had an “a-hah!” moment with this verse. I just finished the book Called to Create: A Biblical Invitation to Create, Innovate, and Risk by Jordan Raynor. In it, Raynor references Dr. Kennon Vaughan when talking about the Great Commission. Vaughan says this, Continue reading “GO(ing)”

Everyday

The waiting…

The tiny frilly dresses are hung in the closet. The flowery onesies are washed and folded. The tiny pink socks are tucked away in their drawer. The diapers are sorted. The baby swings and soothers are assembled. The bottles are sterilized and stored.

And now we wait.

As the impulse to nest fades and my energy levels wane, the anxious anticipation of meeting our little wildflower grows stronger and stronger.

I’ve never had patience. It’s the fruit of the spirit I most struggle with. But nothing prepared me for the impatience of waiting for something that means as much to me as my daughter does. As her little kicks and flutters fill my belly, her future fills my mind. She’s all I think about, day and night. What will she look like? What will she be like? Will she have her daddy’s dimples? What will she be when she grows up? On and on and on…into the wee hours of the morning I think about this little girl and practice patience like I never have before.

The Lord has taught me a thing or two about patience in these final, uncomfortable days of waiting. Romans 12:12 runs through my mind over and over as I lay awake each night:

“Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer.”

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